Broken Vows.

I am an unfaithful bride.
Bound to run away.
You are a relentless lover.
Bound to chase after me.

I've been breaking my vows.
Cheating.
Lying.
Hiding.
I've been taking refuge.
In lies from the Serpent.
Instead of Your truth.

Why.
Lies are comfortable.
Lies are safe.
Lies feel good.

And truth.
Lately truth has been hard.
Scary.
Different.

You are turning me upside down.
Everything I knew. Is changed.
You are getting to the core of me.
The deep. Dark parts.
The parts I hide. The things I'm ashamed of.
They are coming out.
You are pulling them out.
Refining me.

My vows. I continue to break.
To have. But I'm too stubborn.
To hold. But I fear Your nearness.
In sickness. I get angry.
In health. I'm never satisfied.
For richer. You have so much to give.
For poorer. I have nothing to offer.

I desire to be known.
But You already know me.
I long to be seen.
But You already see me. Inside and Out.
I cling to worthless self-images.
But You already made me. Fearfully and Wonderfully.

You knew. This whole time.
You knew.
Your wife would cheat. You wife would leave.
But You pursue me.
You are a faithful husband.