We Pray.

We pray.

We pray in joy.
Thanksgiving. Laughter.
When You've set our feet on a high place
And bound our mangled hearts.

We pray in despair.
Pain. Tears.
When the valley seem too deep
And the mountain just too big.

We pray in anger.
Jealousy. Rage.
When someone else succeeds
And someone else gets the fame.

We pray in peace.
Quiet. Still.
When we feel You holding us
And carrying us in You hand.

We pray in fear.
Confused. Alone.
When the world has turned it's back
And we have no place to go.

We pray in disbelief.
Treachery. Doubt.
When You don't act on our time
And our circumstances don't change.

We pray in strength.
Bold. Confident.
When we know The Battle is won
And we are eternally victorious.

Tonight. We cry.
We cry "Abba, Father."
Come. Hear our plea.

Save us.
Change us
Break us.
Set us free.

You will hear.
Your Holy Ones are calling You near.
You are the Faithful One.
The One and Only.
Yahweh.
We Pray.

Broken Vows.

I am an unfaithful bride.
Bound to run away.
You are a relentless lover.
Bound to chase after me.

I've been breaking my vows.
Cheating.
Lying.
Hiding.
I've been taking refuge.
In lies from the Serpent.
Instead of Your truth.

Why.
Lies are comfortable.
Lies are safe.
Lies feel good.

And truth.
Lately truth has been hard.
Scary.
Different.

You are turning me upside down.
Everything I knew. Is changed.
You are getting to the core of me.
The deep. Dark parts.
The parts I hide. The things I'm ashamed of.
They are coming out.
You are pulling them out.
Refining me.

My vows. I continue to break.
To have. But I'm too stubborn.
To hold. But I fear Your nearness.
In sickness. I get angry.
In health. I'm never satisfied.
For richer. You have so much to give.
For poorer. I have nothing to offer.

I desire to be known.
But You already know me.
I long to be seen.
But You already see me. Inside and Out.
I cling to worthless self-images.
But You already made me. Fearfully and Wonderfully.

You knew. This whole time.
You knew.
Your wife would cheat. You wife would leave.
But You pursue me.
You are a faithful husband.