I come before You tonight with tears in my eyes. No longer for my own selfish
pain.
Tonight. These tears are for You.
Silently they fall. One. By. One. They dance down my check effortlessly on their set course.
Quiet. Yet screaming. I'm sorry. Thank you. All in the same drop.
I so quickly forget. The humility. The suffering.
Everything You faced. Everything You took in silence.
Was for me. Every bit of it.
Your blood. Your tears.
Was for me. Every drop of it.
Why?
Why.
When I continue on.
Kicking and Screaming.
Louder.
Louder.
As if it were all about me.
It's not. It never will be. It can't.
But I keep trying to make it fit.
Forcing it. Bending it. To fit.
But no luck.
This life.
These 20 years.
Should have been for Your glory. Not mine.
Break me daily to see it.
Break me daily to hear it.
Break me daily to feel it.
I want crave You. And Your love.
I long to desire You.
More.
More than the world. My flesh. My lust.
I want You consuming me.
On the tip of my tongue. In the depths of my soul.
I need to be lost in You.
Completely.
