Saturday, September 26, 2009

Days Like Today.

Days like today
I cry out for help.
For direction. For peace.
I've been blindsided
By circumstances I can't change.

Days like today
I sit and listen.
A sign. A whisper.
I wait anxiously
To hear You call my name.

Days like today
I am completely alone.
Still. And quiet.
Contemplating life
And what my next step should be.

Days like today
I cling to the Cross.
Knuckles white. Eyes red.
I'm not letting go
No matter what this storm brings.

Days like today
I hold to Your promises.
Your Faithfulness. Your Love.
You will fill my mouth with laughter
And my lips with shouts of joy.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Love To The World.

I met a guy today. And he broke my heart. He was the epitome of the world. No hope. No joy. No love. Completely lost. It's his birthday next week. All he wants is money. That's where his excitement lies. Because he's not even really living. He doesn't know what true life is. He doesn't know his purpose. He longs to be an un-motivational speaker. Speaking his "truths" to the world.

"Life is horrible. It always will be. Sometimes it seems better. Like maybe things will turn around. But then it always gets worse. And if you can find enough strength to get to the end of the day... You can drink. Then life is great for the night. Until you wake up the next morning. You wake up somewhere you don't know. With someone you wish you weren't with. Or worse off, someone you don't know. And once you do know her. You wish you didn't. And then life's back to being horrible."

He claims his sister's death didn't effect him. He claims to be fine. But he's confused. And searching for love in all the wrong places. But he has no where else to look. He's hurt. And afraid. He just left a girl. He says she was crazy. All he wants is a "normal" girl. A beautiful girl. A girl who likes to be made fun of. A girl who doesn't mind him partying. A girl who approves of strip clubs. A girl who doesn't want to get emotionally attached yet. But who one day might.


Is this what the world lives for?
Is this love?
The same love that everyone seems to be waiting for?

"I've been waiting all my life
To finally find you
Just so I can push you away
And when youre crawlin over broken glass to get to me
That's when I'll let you stay"

"Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be
Holding hands with you when we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you"

"
You should not be angry
If all she wants is your money
Oh, you should not be angry
'Cause all you want is her body
What has love become?"

Exactly. What has love become. The world is convinced that it's all about looks. And feelings. No matter how immoral. But that isn't true love. True love is from the Lord. True love is from above. True love is John 3:16. Christ knows us to our core. And He
came to Earth for us. Taught us. Showed us the right way. Died for us. Raised from the dead so He could save us. Respects us. Cares for us. Accepts us with our fears and failures. Looks past our outward appearance. And loves us unconditionally. That is what our love here on Earth should look like. Not what we can get from the other person. Not what they can give us. It's what we can do for them. All while advancing the kingdom. That's true love.

That guy I met. He didn't get it. And true, biblical love seems crazy to him. Because the world's idea of love is completely upside down. And it breaks my heart. That isn't the meaning of life. That isn't the value of life. Life is about loving the Lord. Living for Him wholeheartly. The rest is up to Him.